Excitement
Courses through my body
My heart
Beats louder and faster
Every muscle
Tenses in anticipation
My hands
Begin to shake
Everything
Has lead to this moment
No reason
To let it pass me by
Take advantage
Of this situation
My mouth
Is dry and nervous
My lips
Are parted just right
Lean in
Please don’t tease
And kiss me
January 28th, 2006
A lone tear
Provoked by you
Sliding slowly down
Caring my pain
Shaping a trail
Within my fear
Do you notice?
Do you care?
Falling softly from
My trembling chin
You walk away
Befor the river flows
You just destroyed
My last hope
~July 2003
It has been so long
Since I felt your touch
To hold your hand
So gently in mine
It seems like forever
That I last saw your face
Looked into you eyes
Feeling safe and calm
It might be eternity
Before I smile again
The way I had done
When I was with you
Oh how I miss
Your warm embrace
Sheltering me
From any outside harm
Why did you leave me?
I dont understand
Did I do something wrong?
I just want you here again
Believe me when I say
That life does go on
I will think of you often
As I search for new happiness
~ July 2003
The orange sun dips below the hills
Darkness covers the traces of light
Clouds billow in from the north
Cold winds chill to the bone
The storm slowly begins
Bringing with it rain and ice Falling
onto the frozen ground
Destroying the beautiful day
Deserted on a dark road
Lost and lonely in the storm
Without a name to call for help
Walking slowly with no destination
No warning, no light, no warmth
Only the pounding of the rain
Freezing every sensation inside
Until pain cannot be felt anymore
Anger replaces all confusion
Rain and ice turn to snow
Love and trust turn to hate
Settle in for the long storm
A
father yelled
A
mother cried
And
inside
A
child died
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You thought you could hurt me
But you can’t
You thought you could control
me
But you can’t
You thought you’d get away
with it
But you didn’t
You thought you’d fool
me
But you didn’t
You never thought I’d do
this
But I did
You never thought I’d leave
But I did
You never thought I was serious
But I was
You never thought it would end
But it’s over
December 6th, 2005
Why...
Why cant you see how much I care?
Why dont I tell you what I feel?
Why is it so hard to overcome my fear?
Why are you so blind to what everyone sees?
Why do I let you walk past me each day?
Why dont I say something to bring you my way?
Why are you with her when you should be with me?
Why cant you see the tears in my eyes?
Why do I have to wait for something I need?
Why cant you learn to love me?
Why do I love you when you dont love me?
~ December 2002
Buried deep, deep inside
Dark as the black night sky
Boiling blistering steam rises
To painful bursts of thorns
Icy tears fall on flaming skin
Dripping into beds of ash
Tortured into a cowering state
Silently screaming in spasm
As the cold chill descends my spine
I give into the deadly fear
~July 2003
Those things
I have been trying to forget those things
Those things that I loved about you
But its impossible to do
They keep flooding back to me
Invading my thoughts with images
Images of you and me together
God how I miss those feelings
Those feelings of amity and harmony
The things that made me happy
Made me believe dreams do come true
But no, all of that is gone now
And I need to forget those things
Those things I loved about you
Because youve clearly forgotten me
9/18/2003
You’re
sitting across from me
But
you’re not really here
Your
mind is miles away
You’re
listening to what I say
But
you’re not hearing me
Even
though it’s important
I
feel lost and all alone
And
I don’t know what to do
I
have no one left to turn to
And
it feels like I’m losing you
Everything
is slipping away
I’m
here with you now
And
yet I still miss you
Because
you’re not here with me
I’m
not ready to let you go
But
I don’t think I have a choice
If
you truly love me
Then
please come back
You
could me leave now
I
understand that very well
And
yet I’m still here
Hoping
you’ll stay too
~ November 30th, 2003
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There are so many things
That I wish I could show you
But I know that's impossible
There are many things
I wish I could tell you
But that's impossible too
I know you're asking
But I stopped giving
One day you may
Be able to understand
Right now it's hard
And I can't help you
Please remember
That I do love you
Even when it's not clear
Don't stop loving me
Because I need you
I could never
Turn you away
Don't push me away
I promise that
I will always be here
By your side forever
~Spring 2005
You are in my thoughts everyday
I dream of you every night
What could be more right
Than to be with you?
I think of you in the morning
When the birds are singing
I think of you in the evening
When the sun is setting
You are my every wish
You are my every desire
How could I ever
Want something else?
You bring happiness into my life
And place a smile on my face
With you I dont worry
About what will happen tomorrow
I dream of us together
And pray it will last forever
Even when I cant be with you
I know I will still love you.
~ August 2003
Coming together as if provoked
Shakily at first, they build
Stinging those around them
Who have yet to find a shield
Coming out carefully
So not to fall apart
They slowly slide down
Showing their true heart
Leaving a slight trial
As they journey down more
Of their salty remains
That comes straight from their core
Suddenly they slip
Falling down, down, down
To a death without pain
Without making a sound
The remains vanish soon
With a quick sweep
Of a small hand
As the girl wipes her cheek
~August 2002
Addicted
to You
I
never thought
I
could feel so strongly
For
another person
I
never realized that
This
passion existed
Taking
over my body
I’ve
never needed
Anyone
so desperately
I
can’t imagine
Life
without you
I
would give up
My
whole world
Just
to be near you
The
way you look at me
I
can’t focus anymore
Your
tender kiss
Leaves
me begging
For
just one more touch
I
never would have known
How
life can be so good
If
I’d never found you
I’m
no longer alone
With
you nearby
No
one else
Could
take your place
I’m
addicted to
Your
soft voice
And
gentle embrace
I’ll
never need
To
find anyone else
As
long as I have
You
in my life
~ February 11, 2004
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